I am utterly exhausted. Each morning I wake, I am tired to the point of not being able to fully open my eyes after a solid 9 or 10 hours of sleep. Subsequent to a full nights sleep, I can easily nap during the day after drinking a tall coffee with shots of espresso in it. And when I nap, I sleep deeply for a good 3 hours.
I started exercising again about 3 weeks ago. I have always been under the impression that it brings energy. Years ago, when I used to run faithfully everyday, I was full of energy afterwards. Now, after I exercise, I am done for the day. The rest of my day is unproductive because I am totally beat. And the exercise I am doing is not extreme, so it’s not like I am overdoing it to say the least. I have also been eating super healthy and taking my vitamins daily, so I can’t attribute the exhaustion to my diet. I have pretty much cut out all carbs and artificial sugars, eating lots of protein, fiber, fruits, and veggies.
I have been getting my dose of Vitamin D as well. I go out in the sun around 2 times a week for a few hours at a time. But to be honest, I really have to push myself to get out there. I would much rather stay inside my air-conditioned house in my bed, in my pajamas, blogging, coloring, or watching my day shoes. Even showering, going to the grocery store, or cleaning takes a lot of energy. Its almost like I can only handle 1 task per day max.
The question is why am I soooo lethargic?!? It can’t possibly be normal considering I get plenty of rest, exercise, eat healthy, & take vitamins. My husband seems to think I am battling some form of depression and I am not consciously aware of it. Has anyone out there experienced similar symptoms and found they are indeed depressed? I mean, after what we have gone through the past year, 3 IVF miscarriages and the loss of our dog, I guess it is possible he is right. I don’t want to believe that I am clinically depressed, but maybe I am.
How do you really know for sure you have something so abstract anyways? A doctor diagnosed me as depressed when I was 20, and I went on antidepressants for a year. I try to think back to my symptoms and the diagnostics of it, but it is all quite blurry. I do remember crying easily and frequently, which is something I also do now.
The only other causes I can come up with aside from the depression are A.) All of the hormones and drugs are still in my system, or B.) I have some underlying issue unrelated to depression that no doctor can seem to identify. I have a hard time believing that it is Option A. and all of those fertility hormones are still in my system months after I last took them and they are causing this. However, I was on the hormones for 9 out of 12 months, and that’s a long time when you think about it. I did undergo anesthesia 4 times in the past 5 months, and take a good amount of painkillers due to all of the procedures.
Could all of this still be in my system? If not, is it Option B perhaps? The unknown? That would be frightening because I have had every test under the sun done and they all seem to show I am healthy on paper.
I would really appreciate any feedback/info from those who have been in a similar situation to this! Thanks in advance.
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