Welcome April! 

Our final (yes, final) lining check was today, and I am happy to report that my lining made it to a solid 8! Woohoo!

My RE was not there for my scan, as today is her surgery day. So my nurse scanned me and saw what appeared to be a tiny bubble underneath my uterine lining. Of course, I started to freak out a bit. She showed me the screen so I would calm down. I asked for her to have my RE call me to discuss what it was. 

As I was driving home, my mind was racing…is it fluid? The mass coming back? Will the cycle be cancelled? How much money will we lose? How will I handle this mentally? Was it all too good to be true? Yet all the while, I am trying to stay positive thinking about my trilaminar 8 mm lining, God is good, if it is fluid we can just suck it out before transfer, etc. 

I took a nap after I got home because I knew my RE wouldnt be able to call me until after 5 and I didnt want to sit around pondering all the possibilities. When I woke up, my phone was ringing; my RE was phoning me from the hospital. I can immediately tell by her voice if it is going to be good news or bad news. It sounded good. Phew, a sigh of relief! 

She informed me right away that it was not a mass or fluid. She said it is a small, subendometrial cyst of no concern. Anyone ever have one? She went on to say many women have these and achieve and maintain pregnancies, and that my uterus looks the best this cycle than any of the 3 prior. This cyst is not in the cavity, and it will not block baby from implanting/growing/and so forth. 

Side note: I did a little of my own research to be sure its okay. Not that I dont trust my RE, because I do. In the past, if she has had a concern, she tells us outright, no beating around the bush with it. But for some reason, investigating on my own helps me seal the deal. This being said, I am not going to stress over this cyst. 

Anyways, I thanked her for personally calling me (she said she assumed I was worrying), I asked a few questions, and we confirmed transfer this upcoming week. I start PIO injections everyday in the butt tomorrow morning! I dont think Ive ever been so happy to get a shot. Lol. 

Shortly after all this, my doorbell rang and a care package had arrived for us from a fellow warrior who is my dear cousin. I opened it up & this is what I found…

  
How absolutely perfect the timing was-pineapple pillows and a yogi card! We are so blessed to have wonderful, supportive people in our lives. One of the reasons I am glad we dont hide our infertility and pregnancy loss from the world. Thank you everyone for your ongoing support! 

FET #3-Lining Check #3 & Other Musings 

Today was bloodwork & lining check #3 for this cycle!

Here are our results so far-

  • Baseline scan-3mm
  • Check #1-5mm
  • Check #2-6mm
  • Check #3-7.5 mm!!

We are thrilled with todays results! I was honestly worried it wouldnt make it to a 7. We are sooo thankful it did, as studies show the pregnancy rates between a lining of a 7 and 8 are the same. And the cherry on top is that I have until Friday for it to grow a little more! It would be awesome if it does do that, but even if it doesnt we are okay with it. Friday will be my last scan and blood draw before we add in the progesterone Saturday & transfer next week (yes, you heard me right…transfer next week!! Ekkk!).  

I got to see the screen again today when I was scanned, and I must say my uterus is looking really good compared to how it has in the past. My lining is clearly triple striped, no fluid, masses, or any other crazy stuff going on! Thank God. So far there have not been any roadblocks this cycle. Maybe its a sign from Him of good things to come! 

In other news, my in-laws came in from Ohio for a few days last week which was nice. I was on spring break (that ended today) so I was able to entertain more than I normally could. Hubby took off 3 work days as well, which ended up giving us 5 days in a row off together with the weekend. 

We ate out quite a bit (I still tried to keep it healthy), sun bathed a little (I finally got a base tan going), and attended my friends going away party with them. The party was a blast, and my face hurt by the end of the night from smiling and laughing so much. Good times. 

  
   
 

After they left, we were pretty lazy. We watched movies, ate in, and slept in. We did a little shopping too. Hubby picked out this cute pineapple headband for me, and an amazing friend of mine surprised me with pineapple earrings in the mail! I bought myself some cute band-aids to cover my injection sites, total score here! 

   

    

We ended our break celebrating Easter Sunday with my family. I felt a renewed sense of energy and actually took the time to get dressed up, curl my hair, and put on make-up (big deals for me!) for dinner. I got lots of compliments from hubs and them which was sweet! 

  
Hope everyone had a blessed Easter! He is risen! 

FET #3: Stims Days 5-10

So far, so good! Nothing really new to report.  Mainly, I just feel like blogging so I figure I will record how the past 5 days of this cycle have gone!

Have been eating super healthy everyday, with the exception of a delicious Kit-Kat bar during lunch the other day. Meals have consisted of Quinoa, Garbanzo beans, avocado, sweet potatoes, organic chicken breast, grass fed beef, whole grains, eggs, protein shakes, salads, etc.  Will continue to keep this up.  

The rapsberry tea I am drinking every day after work is causing me to pee more in the middle of the night than usual. Ugh. I really need to drink it in the mornings, but I dont want to be peeing non-stop while Im teaching either. Since Spring Break starts tomorrow, maybe I will try it out in the mornings and see if it helps. Im peeing about 4 times a night now compared to my usual 2 times. Annoying, but prep for being preggo again I guess!

Circle + Bloom meditation is still going strong. Im now on CD 2, part 4. I have only missed 2 days since suppression started, and I was just too beat to get in the mood for it those nights. The power of the mind is amazing to me. During meditation, I have been able to shrink myself down into a mini size and get into my uterus! Sounds crazy right? Lol. Its part of the program, getting things all perfect in there for baby. I am proud of myself for being able to connect my mind and body so deeply. Pretty cool, and relaxing. 

Started Folgard 1x per day this week. I start vaginal viagra (I KNOW… wt*) this Sunday. What woman has to go on viagra? This one! This will boost my lining even more. Anything for baby, right? Anyways, who has been on this before? Hopefully no horror stories? Only on it for 5 days in all so not too bad. Oh, and for various reasons, we decided I will not be doing the Lovenox bloodthinner this cycle. Feeling satisfied with our decision about this. 

My in-laws from Ohio will be in for a few days next week during my break.  We are looking forward to this, and hubby took a few days off to hang with us. Im hoping to get some Vitamin D at the beach! The summer weather is back, its been hitting the 80’s again everyday, and I need a tan majorly. 

Hubby and I started watching that new OJ series on demand. Takes me back to the 90s and watching the live trial. Some of it pisses me off, like how did this guy seriously get off?!? Oh, and John Travolta…dear Lord! What did he do to his face? I cant take it! Anyone else notice this? 

Hoping everyone has a blessed week! Will update after Mondays lining check 😊

FET 3: Lining Check #1

Today was lining check number 1! Last week at my day 3 ultra, my lining was thin as it should be, measuring 3 mm. We hoped to see it increase by a few millimeters at todays appointment, and the good (actually great) news is that it did! 

Lining today measured a solid 5 after 1 week of stims. This may not seem like much to most, but if you have followed for awhile, you might recall lining was a little bit of an issue in the past with our first 2 transfers. 

  • Fresh transfer-lining of a 7 
  • FET 1-lining of a 6 (almost cancelled)
  • FET 2- lining of a 10(this was on extended stims). Note: I will have an extra week of stims this cycle since it seemed to help the cycle when I got up to a 10. 

That being said, we are praying for my lining to be a 7 or 8 next week, and close to a 10 or 11 the following right before transfer and progesterone is started. Last FET it seemed to increase its thickness by 2 mm every week, hopefully thats the case again this time and we will be all set! My RE is like most, and wants to see at least a 7 or better to transfer.

So the plan is to continue legs up the wall, raspberry tea, daily meditation & prayer, estrogen ass shots and oral pills (levels looked good after blood this a.m.) and all other forms of relaxation and healthiness.  I told the nurse today I am not used to such positive news during a cycle, and she said maybe its just our time! Sure hope so 💗

FET #3: Stims Day 1

So this just happened…

 
Delestrogen injection #1 done in the butt!

I took the medication, needles, and syringe with me to my appointment this morning, hoping my nurse would do the injection for me. Unfortunately, that was not the case, as this shot needs to be done between 7 p.m. and 9 p.m. So much for wishful thinking! Hubby came to the rescue and did it tonight for me though. Note: this is a big step…I usually am a control freak and do all my own injections! 

After I listened to my Circle + Bloom CD and ate dinner, we watched a video on how to do the injection, read through the pamphlet, and followed where my nurse had marked. It was pretty straightforward- I leaned over the bed and tried not to put pressure on the side we chose. He was calm, and confident (as usual) something that I admire about him. Helps take some of my crazy away! 

What also helped a lot was the fact that my RE wrote me a prescription for Lidocaine (numbing gel) for us to rub on my ass about an hour before the intramuscular injection. I was not expecting this at all! I simply brought up ice and heat this morning, and she said “how about we give you this so you dont have to worry about doing either?” Thank you Lord for this blessing! We took full advantage of it, numbing the area up real good before the shot. He then massaged after. 

  
I should mention that my ultrasound went as it should this morning, lining is thin, ovaries suppressed, no cysts, etc. My estradiol level came back at 11, also good news. Cant wait to hear how my lining grows over the next week! 

TTC Old Wives Tales

Over the years I have come across plenty of TTC tales. Just as there are Old Wives Tales when it comes to predicting the gender of a baby, there are ones out there on how to up the chances of getting pregnant too.
Unlike the momma-to-be having acne, or baby having a certain heartrate, the tales regarding how to get pregnant seem to revolve mostly around nutrition.  

I should probably have prefaced this post by saying I am *not* superstitious in the least.  I am, however, all about reaping the benefits of eating healthy foods. In my opinion, food is the best medicine out there. So I cant deny that these tales are a little intriguing to me. 

Here are a few TTC tales that stick out-

  1. Upping your Bromelian intake, or eating pineapples 🍍🍍🍍 – starting on transfer day, or ovulation day, for about a week, eat a slice of pineapple a day, making sure to keep the core attached to what you eat. I have eaten pineapple on transfer day for a few transfers now. I dont think I continued it past transfer though, not 100% sure.  Supposedly eating this fruit helps with implantation.  Read more about this tale here 
  2. Boosting Selenium, or eating (Brazilian) nuts 🌰🌰🌰-never tried this one, although I have heard about it from a lot of you ladies. Again, some suggest it assists with embryo implantation.  Read more here
  3. Pom Juice for a healthy uterine lining and increased blood flow-again, never tried this tale. I did try Raspberry Red Leaf Tea for this particular reason during one cycle. It did happen to be the cycle my lining thickened quite a bit, not sure if it played a part in it or not. Poms and other fertility friendly food reading 
  4. Keeping your feet warm, or body warm-my nana always taught me this was a smart move since I was a kid, and I have gone on to hear about the health benefits of it in general over the years. I just recently saw it as a TTC tip. More on this here

So my questions for you ladies are…

  • Did you try any of these during your cycle? If so, which ones?
  • Are there any other tales you think are worth while? 
  • Did you achieve success or failure using any of these? 
  • If you havent tried any of these yet, do you plan to try any in the future?

I have no idea if I will pursue any of these tales during our future FET or not. I do know I will continue to keep it healthy though which I believe is most important! 

A Scare

Things have been relatively uneventful on the Lupron Depot the past 2 months as Ive said. That was until last week. 

When I first started my menstrual cycle early last week, it was right on time and rather light. I expected it to be light as my RE told me it would be and I also read that it would be.  And my cycles are light to begin with anyways.  

Well that “lightness” lasted about 3 days. Then it got pretty heavy, and that has continued on and off now for about 8 or 9 days. Usually my cycle only lasts 4 days max. Ive lost track of exactly how many days its been going on to be honest. 

I figured I should inform my RE of what was occurring, so I did, and she ordered me to get blood drawn ASAP. There was an immediate concern that the Lupron might not be doing what it should be doing… *SIGH*… seriously?

  

Side note: I cringed when I saw the word “STAT” on the order.  Havent seen that since my beta hell days.  

Well, I got my results back, and thankfully, all of my levels are as they should be if the Lupron is (trying) to do its job shrinking this mass. However, Im still bleeding. My RE doesnt think this is normal, so I am headed in for a scan in a few days just to be safe and cover all our bases. 

Dont ask me what safe would be at this point, because I have no freaking clue. Over the years, Ive learned not to ask too many questions ahead of time, because it can all change at the drop of a hat anyways. I am pretty sure I heard her say something about checking my lining, but I just said “okay.” Ill figure it all out soon enough when I see her. 

Praying that it looks as it should because gosh darn it already….shouldnt something just be easy?!?!