FET #3: Transfer Day

After waiting almost a year & a half since our last transfer, & 2 years from the first, yesterday was FINALLY the BIG day! 

Our transfer wasnt scheduled until 1 pm in the afternoon, which had both positives and negatives to it. More time to get things in order, on the other hand more time to let my mind wonder. 

We woke up around 8, took the dogs for a walk, & did my daily injection on PIO. Next, we went to the grocery store & got a couple last minute items that we hadnt got over the weekend. When we got back, I showered while he cooked us brunch. We ate eggs, chicken breast, tomatoes, & wheat muffins.

Then I showered, prayed with my mom over the phone, read devotional with hubby (which ironically for the first time ever discussed infertility) & popped in my Circle + Bloom transfer day CD. I have been listening to the sessions religiously this cycle and was super excited to put this one in!!! Praying, reading, & meditating where exactly what I needed to calm my nerves. 

At last, it was time to get ready to go! If you know me, you know I usually dont wear make-up unless Im heading out for a fancy dinner or something of the sorts. Well, I decided to do myself up yesterday. As I was putting on make-up, hubby was like, “are you putting on make-up?” Haha! I replied with, “yes, arent we getting ready to make a baby? Under normal circumstances, if we had just started trying, I would be getting prettied up for you!” We both chuckled. 

Thanks to all of the suppport we have in our life, I was decked out from head to toe in items we have been given for his cycle. I had on my pineapple headband (hubby), my pineapple earrings (bestie), baby charm bracelet (cousin), a Pandora ring (my mom), hope necklace (aunt), 4 leaf clover necklace (blogger), bad ass undies (me), and stork socks (me). I also had an angel in my pocket from one of my co-workers, along with a yellow bracelet. I felt very special & surrounded by love. 

Hubby & I decided to stop by the water before we went to the RE’s office. Its just a few minutes away, and its in a beautiful, more ritzy area. What a gorgeous day out! The sun was shining with a breeze, truly a spring day in Florida. We took some selfies, skipped rocks, and talked about the future. On our way to the car, I popped my valium. 

  
As soon as we got to the office, I could tell they might be running a little behind. They are very quick for regular appointments, but for retrievals, transfers, & the like they arent. Im not complaining; I dont want them to rush me when Im back there! Anyways, they finally took us back around 1:45.

The nurse took my blood & my vitals, then we headed back to transfer room. I got in my sheet skirt (so cute…not!) and put on my cap. Shortly after, the embryologist came in to show us our embies (now named Itty & Bitty), and tell us how they did thawing. Nervewracking part. She showed us a pic of 1 embie (our AB graded) & you could see it was clearly hatching already! She was really pleased with how it only took it an hour to do so once thawed, as compared to normally 3 hours. Here she is…

  
When I asked how the other one did, she was like “what other 1? Arent we only doing 1?” Hubs and I just stared at each other, and I cant remember who spoke up first. We informed her we are transferring 2. She acted like it wouldnt be a big deal, as she could see my stress level rising a bit. She left to go talk to my RE.

At this point, hubby got up and asked me if I wanted to pray together. I was so thankful for this. He prayed over us, as I listened, and it was just perfect. A few minutes later, my RE came back in, and apologized, saying there must have been a miscommunication between the nurse and her somewhere. She said they would de thaw it now, and hoped we wouldnt mind waiting another hour. 

When 3 pm finally rolled around, the embryologist came back in with embie number 2’s photo. He survived just fine too! Most of his hatching will take place inside of me since he wasnt out thawing as long. 

  
By now, my valium had long worn off & we were ready to get this show on the road! My RE, nurse, & medical assistant (I asked if she could stay, it was the first transfer she got to see!) all piled in the room about 3:30. They inserted the catheter, filled my bladder, & as we watched the screen, on the count of 3, we saw Itty & Bitty released back into their home!!! So cool to watch. 

During the transfer, my RE said my uterus has looked better than it ever has before. Thank you God! When it was complete, she gave us my discharge instructions, wished us well, & said she would see us soon. After that I still had to lay with my feet up for about 20 minutes, and by now it was 4 pm! The time delay was worth it though. 

We eventually got home at about 5 and had dinner. More chicken breast, salad with carrots, cucs, mushrooms, & tomatoes, followed by an avocado & banana smoothie with pineapple core & brazilian nuts for dessert. Hubs put in Pippi Longstocking for me & I watched that, smiling often! I havent seen it since I was a child & I bought it just for this occassion. 

We were both super tired by 8pm, so I listened to my Circle + Bloom CD one more time, & actually fell asleep in the process. Ill take that as a good thing! I did wake up a few times through the night to pee as usual, but the difference this time was that my mind started to race when usually its shut off during the wee hours. I felt a few cramps and of course, tried to analyze them. Soon, I fell back asleep. 

Today (2dp6dt), I have already meditated to my CD. Later, I plan to read my new book, color, watch the new series I bought, etc. Hubs is back to work, so its just me & the boys here. My mom might stop by too. 

Please keep us in your prayers while I am PUPO!! Thank you!

Down to the Wire

Transfer day is just a few days away! Hard to believe it is finally here!!! 

I got an email today telling us what time to arrive, with a few other instructions. I always request a valium before transfer so I am chilled out to the max, so the prescription for that was included in the message. The valium is also nice because as soon as I get home it causes me to take a nap so my embies can start snuggling in good!!

The email went on to confirm my request of them filling my bladder before the transfer, rather than me filling it myself. I have had this done for prior transfers and it is a Godsend for someone with a small bladder. Years ago, I went through various tests at a urologist only to eventually find that my bladder is 3x smaller than that of a normal sized bladder. Ehhh. The only way to fix this is to operate (no thanks) or take medication for it everyday for the rest of my days (no thanks again). I have learned to just deal with it on a day to day basis, but transfer day is different. 

Anyways, when my RE fills my bladder, it eliminates me from having to worry about drinking at all pre-transfer. Can we say awesome?!? Instead, they fill me up through a catheter immediately before the transfer. I dont need to hold it nearly as long this way and they control the amount needed to fill it. They drain it for me immediately following the procedure too so I can comfortably lay and rest for some time after. My RE actually likes filling it for me now, as she says they can get the images of my uterus as clear as possible!

The last thing the email addressed was being sure to eat a light meal, high in protein before we arrive. I plan to eat grilled chicken breasts. Hubs and I did some shopping this weekend and stocked up on all the healthy fruits, veggies, drinks, & snacks I need (or want) for my 2 week wait. Yum!!! We plan to get all of our meats the morning of transfer since we dont go in until the afternoon that day. 

  

I have mixed emotions as we speak about the next few weeks. I am feeling nervous yet excited, afraid but oh-so-very- hopeful. I know I have done everything humanly possible on my part, and the rest is up to Him! 

Hysteroscopy Results 

I went to bed early last night so I didnt allow myself too much time to dwell on the procedure that awaited me this a.m. I woke about 3 a.m. and couldnt go back to sleep as my mind raced. I finally fell back asleep for a few hours and then it was time to get the show on the road.

I showered and put on my lucky socks and bracelet. 

 
My mom and I drove down to the clinic and I popped my first Valium when we got there, the next 2 about 20 minutes later. They took me back, checked all my vitals, I used the loo, and changed into my cap and gown (hopefully Ill be graduating soon!) 

 
I was in pretty good spirits about it all, I only shed a few tears right before my mom left and I think it was an effect of the Valiums (I seem to cry easily on it).  My RE came in, along with my RN, and her assistant. We small talked as they adminstered my IV. Within a few minutes I started to feel a little loopy. 
This time I stayed awake throughout the whole procedure even though I got the same dosage of narcotics I always have in the past. Maybe I am just used to them by now. Either way, it wasnt too painful, more uncomfortable than anything. I did my best to listen to what they were saying and look at the screen beside me that pictured my uterus. 

Drum roll please….my uterus is clear! The mass is gone. Completely. It was described as looking perfect!

Everyone was so excited! Its been awhile since we have had something this positive happen to us. I cried happy tears and thanked God over and over. Im still in shock to be honest. I prepared myself for it to go the other way today, but it didnt. We are so incredibly grateful. 

Ive been sleeping the day away as the drugs wear off. I am headed back to work tomorrow, and then Monday Ill be headed back to the clinic for my post-op appt, my day 3 ultra and blood, and start of stims. Thank you for your kind words and support about today! Prayer works.