The End

147 days. Through latching issues, to having a tongue & lip tie clipped, to using a shield for almost 2 months, to a few nasty bouts of thrush, to low supply & taking all sorts of supplements, to an oversupply & an overactive letdown & having to pump all the time, to horrible acid reflux & adding thickening agents to my milk just so he could drink it, to seeing numerous lactation consultants & just trying to make it through the days, one damn day at a time. I breastfed my son for 147 days, just 1 month short of my goal of 6 months. And Im proud. It wasnt easy, perhaps the hardest thing I ever did (other than infertility & loss). In fact, it was harder than laboring for 22 hours with him. Dont get me wrong, it was wonderful at times. Gummy smiles, boob drunk sleeps, breastsleeping. All the feels. I wouldnt change it for the world. But it was so hard. And the world doesnt make it any easier on someone struggling. They are always trying to provide another suggestion or advice, when sometimes what a mom needs is simple understanding. I didnt know how tough quitting would be on me, not just mentally but physically too. Ive experienced withdrawls including headaches, dizziness, nausea. Its no joke. We have been weaning for about 2 weeks now & Ive shed lots of tears. Ive watched him go from eating to just looking for comfort. And although I know without a doubt the timing was right (prolly even sooner than now), it is SO bittersweet. I can only hope that I get to experience this bond again one day. If not, no regrets. 

147 days ❤️

22 thoughts on “The End

  1. ❤❤ kudos to you for making it that far! I only made it 20 days, you should certainly be proud of how much effort you put in and how far you made it ❤❤

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  2. You did a fantastic job. I’m so proud of you and your perseverance through this for your little one. Enjoy him. Happy Mother’s day to you.

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    • Thanks! Yea J think the side effects were bad bc I tried to go cold turkey at first…stupid me! By day 3 they subsided a bit. I used cold cabbage leaves, peppermint tea bags, sudafed & hand expression.


  3. Great job Mama!!!!

    It IS the hardest thing to do. Definitely not as easy as the class made it seem! I agree that the pain, especially in the beginning, was way harder than labor, mostly because it lasts a lot longer!

    I am so proud of you!!

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