Recovery

I am still in a lot of shock about what has happened. However, I think I am recovering pretty well. Thank you to everyone who has reached out, and I havent had the chance to reply to yet. 

Today is the first day I can shower since the operation, which is good news. We were able to change the bandages yesterday and ice the wounds which felt nice. Mom & hubby have been caring for me around the clock. Sleeping has been tough because I cant really move much. Its getting a little better each day though. Lets just say the ass shots havent been the easiest either, its like just stab me & get it over with because I cant roll over or lay on my stomach. 

Yesterday I got to the kitchen table on my own and ate lunch there which is progress (I had only been eating in bed).  Im also getting up and down on my own to pee now. Speaking of peeing, after surgery I couldnt pee easily at all. I had to run the water for a few minutes before it would come. Its now coming on its own! No blood or cramping, thank God.

My RE called to check on me yesterday. I told her the pain is localized to the stomach where Im cut. She thought it was excellent news that I wasnt having any cramping in my uterus as far as miracle baby goes. We will see for sure tomorrow. Such a big day. 

It is starting to sink in more mentally that we lost another pregnancy. Whether in the tube or not. She did tell me there was no heartbeat in that baby. It still hurts though. A loss is a loss. Im sure Ill be sorting through these feelings for awhile to come. Im praying that after this loss and the loss of my tube, that our miracle stays with us. Another loss would be just devastating.