FET #3: In the Thick of the Wait

I guess I must have forgotten how horrendous the 2ww can be. Especially after an IVF transfer. Ugh! 

I can actually say I was happy to go back to work today after being off since Thursday last week. At least at work my mind doesnt have as much time to wonder. At this point, Im mostly just wondering if it even worked or not. I can only see 1 milestone at a time, no further. And to be honest, even at work, when busy, I still caught myself going there from time to time.  Oh well, I guess its the norm with all this right?


Ive had quite a bit of achiness and a little cramping on both sides of my uterus today. Im pretty in tune with it, and its been hard to ignore. Really thats all for today.  


Hubs packed all my healthy lunches for the week yesterday. I offered to do it, but he wouldnt let me. He really tried to keep me relaxed & off my feet all weekend. So cute. Anyways, Ive got several salads packed with hard boiled eggs, topped with tons of veggies, P & J sandwiches, hummus dip, beans, etc. Tonight for dinner we had parmesan zucchini crusted chicken breasts with mashed potatoes and green beans. It was delish! 

What else????

Last night I had a dream that we took an HPT and got a positive. I woke up so excited & then realized it was a dream. We really want this to work so badly! I cant even put it into words. 

Yesterday my mom and I went to a local home store so she could pick me up a few more pineapple placemats to go with the ones that my aunt originally bought me (she got me 4, I needed 6).  We got the placemats & I told her I wanted to make a “faith” purchase while we were there. Meaning, I wanted to buy something that shows I believe this is going to work; that we will be bringing home our baby or babies this winter. We walked towards the 1 aisle in the store that carried baby things. As soon as we turned the aisle, the first thing my eyes saw was this…


I almost cried. I grabbed it & told my mom it was a sign. If you dont know, our last name is Fish (yes, Fish) and Ive been feeling we will have a girl. My mom said, “well arent you going to get 2?” By the time I was done thinking about it, she had already got it. Then she reminded me how when I was younger she always told me I was going to have twin girls! I had totally forgotten. 

43 thoughts on “FET #3: In the Thick of the Wait

  1. The 2ww is super hard!..Wishing you all the best for you!. Hope the little one(s) is (are) going to stick healthy and perfect.πŸ‘. It is good to be pampared and spoiled by loved ones.. I love that!. Hope this is our time friend!! Prayers..

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  2. You are constantly in my thoughts! I love the purchase for your little girls. Wishing you all the best and glad you’re keeping up the healthy and stress free lifestyle.

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      • Well still progressing. I had some brown discharge this morning and have had pretty consistent period-like cramping yesterday and today (less today) but a quick scan shows all is still on track. I’m pretty nervous but trying to remain hopeful. Thanks for asking.

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  3. Omg I got chills at the end when you said your mom predicted you’d have twin girls when you were a kid. I actually had a dream that we got a positive result right before our successful transfer– hoping it is the same for you! During that 2ww I saw signs all over the place: they played “our song” in the waiting room before the transfer AND at lunch afterwards even though it’s more than 10 years old, I got a fortune cookie that said “A small gift can bring joy to the whole family”, I had a dream the night before the beta that it was positive and a girl (it wasn’t- small detail), etc. This post reminds me of that!

    I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you! Stay as busy and distracted as possible & you will get through this 2ww!

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  4. I love the idea of a “faith purchase”. No matter how depressed or down I would get during IF and RPL I would always find myself buying little things for our future baby. I kept them packed away in a box on the top shelf of a storage closet. When I was 38 weeks pregnant with my now son, I finally had the courage to open the box and wash a few things for him. Once he was born I got out all the things I had bought him over the past 5 years (it was way more than I though) and now when he wears or uses one of them I smile and think of how when I purchased that item I could only dream of him. I know that one day you will get to wrap your miracle baby/ies up in one of those towels : )

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