Thinking Ahead

It is our hope & dream that we do our FET this April and bring home a healthy and happy singleton just in time for Christmas this year. 

But we all know that sometimes things dont work out exactly as we plan them to. Those of us suffering from infertility and pregnancy loss know this all too well. 

In the last 24 hours, two of my fellow bloggers have had failed IVF cycles. My heart aches for them. Its a reality that none of us like to think about going into a cycle. We simply cant fathom putting everything into something to come out with nothing. Its so incredibly unfair. 

These failed cycles hit close to home and have me thinking about how it is very well something that could happen to us in little over a month. Im not being negative, Im just being realistic.

We have never had a ‘technical’ failed transfer. All positives ending in loss. I have no idea how I would react to a negative, but I know, just like my fellow warriors, I will pick up the pieces and keep moving forward.  And in all honesty, I really do not want to deal with miscarrying again ((obviously)), so if something is wrong Id rather the embryo not implant at all to begin with. 

So hubby and I sat and discussed what our next move will be if this singleton FET fails and ends in a BFN in April. 

The plan would be to transfer both of our remaining frozen embryos in June. 

Its hard to believe that when we began this fresh cycle back in February 2014, 2 years ago, we had 8 embryos in total. 

Ive now miscarried 5 of them, and we have 3 left. 

April we transfer 1 embie in hopes of our dream coming true.

If not, in June we transfer both embies and pray our dream comes true then. 

We arent thinking any further than that for now. I do feel good being on the same page and at least knowing what will happen should things not go as planned in April.