We did our last FET and I was PUPO (for all my non-IF readers, pregnant until proven otherwise).
Since we lost baby Isaiah and his twin, I have dreaded this day. I think I will be OK, overall I am doing well with it. Its just been on my mind 24/7 as we rolled into the month of December.
Last year, this month was filled with so much anticipation for what could come. It pretty much revolved around appointments, injections, blood draws, and peeing on sticks. This year is quite the opposite. We still have anticipation for the future, but its not the same.
In fact, this is the first time I have approached a prior transfer date without being in the process of undergoing another. Theres no hiding from it or distractions from it. Its just us, face to face with the rawness that it has been a year now since we got pregnant last. Still hard to believe.
Instead of being on bedrest this weekend as I was last year, we will be heading to Gaylord Palms and celebrating Christmas just the two of us. Im sure it will be on our minds, but Im also sure it wont spoil all we have to be thankful for.
Surviving INfertility 
Hugs, mama. Anniversaries are so hard. Xoxo.
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Yes, the worst. I appreciate the love.
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Big hugs for such a difficult time. I hope you have a wonderful holiday 🙂
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Thank you. I wish the same for you ❤️
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I hate these tupes of anniversaries. Im sorry you are stuck with this around christmas. I do hope you have a wonderful holiday together.
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Me too. Thank you so much and I hope you do the same ❤️
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Big hugs to you – I hope that you will be able to enjoy yourselves and feel happy and not overwhelmed by sad anniversaries and broken dreams. I’m sure you will get your dream, it’s just so frustrating that the road to it is so difficult. Wishing you love & happiness xx
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Thank you for having faith in our dream coming true one day. You are right, the road there is so long and unfair at times though. Wishing you the same my friend ❤️
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This is so tough. But glad that you have a chance to get away and enjoy time by yourselves. ❤
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Thank you. I was just thinking of you this morning. I hope you are doing okay and can enjoy yourself a little too ❤️
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❤ I hope your getaway is relaxing and recharges you for the new year! Hugs.
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Hugs.. these days are always so hard.
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Indeed 😓 thank you ❤️
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These ‘anniversaries’ are the worst. It’s a hard time becuz it’s also a great time of year and you want to be happy and normal, and yet, there’s that tug of sadness. Hugs to you guys and I think acknowledging it is the best thing to get back into the groove of enjoying the moment.
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You nailed it. Thanks so much for caring.
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These dates are so hard. I hope you and your hubby have a relaxing holiday and you enjoy spending time together. Hugs to you.
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Thank you for understanding. I wish the same to you.
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