October is a month of remembrance for several things close to so many peoples hearts; most commonly, Breast Cancer. In addition, it is disability and domestic violence awareness month. Most of us RPL survivors know that October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. On Facebook, a lot of people, including myself, have turned their profile pictures pink and blue with the hashtag #gopinkandblue.
I have wanted to do something to bring more awareness to pregnancy loss since I have become a victim, but I have never really known where to start other than just speaking out on social media outlets. In my heart, I want to do more for those hurting, but again, I find myself not sure where to begin.
I have prayed that if God wants me to do something, he will show me a sign. In fact, not too long ago, I went to a womans conference at a local church. At the end of the conference, they passed out a survey for each woman to fill out. Most of the questions centered around the conference, but there was one question that did not. This question asked if I would be interested in starting any type of outreach or ministry and if so, what for. I went back and forth about filling it out, but immediately, as soon as I read it, I knew maybe it was my chance to reach other women/couples in my shoes. This being said, I finally wrote down that I would be willing to start a pregnancy/baby loss group. I prayed that if it was meant to be for someone to please call me. No one ever did.
Maybe it isnt the right time. Maybe I am not in the mindset to be of help to anyone yet. Maybe I would not help them in a positive way. I dont really know. But, regardless, I am keeping my faith that one day I can help women in a way that only those who have felt the pain themselves understand.
Since I do not know what to do right now to reach out, I decided that I would write this post in honor of October being pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I dont have many words, so I have found images to represent the love,pain and anguish I, and I am assuming so many others, feel each day. Please know you are not alone.
I will be lighting a candle on October 15, along with millions of others, for every baby we have lost. I invite you to light one too, whether you personally have lost a baby or not. Please remember that 1 in 4 experience this kind of loss, and many do not speak out about it.