We Earned the Title

After the genetic testing came back normal, we decided we would move forward with a hysteroscopy, or HS of my uterus.  In the past, we had done diagnostic tests on my uterus, such as the HSG, and SIS, all of which came back normal.  A hysteroscopy is done between days 6-9 of your cycle, and sees things that these other two tests can’t pick up on.

There are 2 types of hysteroscopy-diagnostic and operative.  You are probably wondering why we waited this long to do the hysteroscopy, right? Well, doctors do not like to do this test until you are classified as a, “habitual aborter,” or “recurrent miscarrier.”  And after 3 losses, we had officially earned the title.

We will be starting with the diagnostic in-office hysteroscopy.  For this, I will receive a “twilight” anesthesia. From what we have been told, the doctor inserts a tiny camera into the uterus.  The camera sees things like uterine abnormalities, scar tissue, polyps, fibroids, etc.  My doctor also recommended we do a biopsy of my uterus to test for any (undetectable by pap and/or blood) low-grade infections that could be causing me to miscarry.

If she was to see a major problem during the diagnostic hysteroscopy, she will not remove or fix it then since I would only be in a twilight state.  Instead, we will schedule the operative hysteroscopy for the following month, where I will undergo general anesthesia at the hospital (aka place of death).

We were ready to do this procedure weeks ago, but we couldn’t until my beta reached 0, or I got my first period.  Just another waiting game in the lives of an infertile couple.  I hadn’t had a period since November.  In fact, in the past year, I had only had 6 periods due to my on and off again pregnant state of living.

I got my beta drawn every week after the d & c, for 8 weeks.  Here is the timeline of how it dropped:

• Day of miscarriage-over 100,000
• 1 week post- 33,500
• 2 weeks post- 3,000
• 3 weeks post-300
• 4 weeks post-36
• 5 weeks post-15
• 6 weeks post-7 (weird brownish spotting this week, thought it was my period, but it wasn’t)
• 7 weeks post-4
• 8 weeks post-0!

So here we are.  This brings us to the month of March, the present time.  It has now been 8 weeks since we lost our little angels. Aunt Flow finally came just 2 days ago, bringing her vengeance.  I don’t know how I feel about my level being back to 0, or the fact that my period finally came.  Yes, many people say it’s good, and I get that.  Obviously, it’s over and things must go back to normal.  But, at the same time it is all more confirmation of what was lost.

This being said, getting my period was an extremely rough day.  This wasn’t part of the plan a few months ago.  I knew if we were still pregnant, we would be getting our anatomy scan done this very week, confirming if we were having a little girl or boy.  The scan was going to be followed by a small gender reveal celebration with our family, who will be arriving in town this week.  Instead, this week we will be getting a hysteroscopy done to find out what is wrong with me.  Or so we hope.